Celebration Month~~~

Gosh. This month been clubbing way too much. Lolx wat to do, festival season month~~ Increased from once clubbing session to twice per week this Dec'09.

Went Shanghai Dolly with DF group for Xmas countdown. Duno why felt abit out of place with that group. Izzit the same group that at df? Or mayb coz of change of venue? Doesnt matter at all la, as wat Meyn say Drink a few more cup then everything will be same. Meyn came down after the countdown & Philip group left quite early. Think my memory stop after meyn reach. Dun really rmb wat happen after that. Cant even rmb why i give out my hp number again like business cards.

Anyway these 2 weeks know de guys all are so much younger. Last week at df know few guys which are 25years old. This week at sd know is only 22years old. Mayb i can console myself that i look young right? Haha.. Faintz.

another missing secondary school fren

Mon was the bday of my colleague~~ thus they suggest went to eat at chom chom..

when was in the carpark saw a guy carrying a young baby. but he look kind of familiar so I took a second look at him.. then I realise tat he my secondary school classmate, Guoliang.. saw 2 long lost fren in 3 days. surprise~~

Guoliang is with her baby girl. so cute n pretty.. last month was browsing thru his facebook profile n her wedding photo look really pretty.

envious tat pretty moment only, but fear tat lifetime commitment which one have to held on for the rest of the life. after being thru so much n seeing so much, I not too sure do I dare to sign on tat dotted line anot.

Old classmate~~

Went for my weekly df night on fri & sat this week.

I still prefer to went on fri coz more ppl which i know is there making it more fun i guess. Starting of the sat is abit sianz until i was thinking to go off @12plus. But when u wanted to leave, idiot Zy dun wan to go off say delay until 1am.

When 1am reach i ask him going anot, he delay ti 2plus. So when it 2plus already it my turn not to leave already coz i got to know a few new fren there. & when i smoking, i saw my sce 1 classmate, MingDao too.

Actually saw him at the starting of the night, but he is with a few girls and i not sure whether do he still rmb me as we nv tok to each other anymore since sec 1. lolx. But surprisingly he can rmb even my name haha and i rmb his name wrongly.

In the end still club until end then we leave haha.

Complicated Thinking~~

He disappear in my life for 1/2 month, i really thought i would never hear from him ever again. But today he appear again, asking me for dinner. But i need to work until 8pm coz FY end closing. Been working late for the past week in office.

Thru out the dinner, he nv mention anything at all abt why he suddenly disappear. I tot he here to pass me my things and to say a clean break. But i guess it quite clear cut to him that our thing are quite clear therefore there is nothing to say abt.

Guy!! Really complicated thinking creature just like woman. They told u they like u yet they bed ur fren. They ask for another chance yet they dun cherish it at all. Crazy world crazy human crazy thinking.

So the best is not to think of it at all. Just carry on my Friday Drinking Night!!

Where is the love???!!

last fri night is so messy for me. Haiz, drink drank drunk until cannot make it & duno even know where i get my big cut on my leg. Duno wat really happen in the club. Haha, think i really need zhiyong to be with me.. He my best choice of nanny. Hehe

I miss my ktv session so much. Where is all my kaki gone too. My kaki used to be his fren la. That why no more kaki anymore. I wanted to really go with some1 who SING~~ not to there to drink like my ah meyn la. Haha. Where is the love~~ The Love~~ The Love~~

Watch twilight part 1 on scv last night. Vampire Edward is damn cool, damn yandao, damn romantic, damn faithful. Of all the thing, faithful is really the thing i like most of him. Ya, Faithful toward Belle. I just cant link this faithful to any of the man anymore. At least not in my world.

Time & Alcohol can change anything in this world. Even the most faithful guy. Totally got no moer trust in any of the creature. Yet i do still wanted to fall in love once again, but then i keep reminding myself not to do that. Unless i wan to get disappointed once again. But then i really thirst for the feel of love again.. Stupid woman right. Complicated thinking, timid character & unsecure feeling.

I think i should just stick to my drink drank drunk!! Kam Bei~~~~

Finally, it over!!!

Finally!!! Finally!!! Haha finish my 1 and only paper for this semester.. My usual practice is to take up at least 2 paper each semester, but this semester only took up one retake module exam coz of too many messy & unexpected thing happen~~

Din really have much confident at all for the paper today. My last 2 qn was damn hard that i duno wat i write as answer anyway. Lolx~~ Had took leave on Tue to study but then i wake up at late morning. Then was follow by alot of calls from office to settle HP invoices. By the time i finish everything it already afternoon. So time for lunch, after lunch of course is a small nap la.

End up my short nap become a long nap. Haha when i awake, my usual tv time slot start all the way till 1am. Then try to study but was side track by msn, sms and of course Facebook. & wat was worse is i dozed off at 3am & wake up at 8am trying to study. End up finish reading ONE SENTENCE then i doze off again. Power right. i guess i mayb a sleeping beauty my past life. Haha so the total time spend on study is only a few hours!! How to pass lidat??!! lolx.

After settle my exam, it time to settle another thing too.
Duno wat went wrong oso. Suddenly there was no sms no new from him, wonder wat i did wrong? Or mayb he realised too that things are not the same & wish to undo the mistake. Then since he dun want to abandon me the 2nd time then this time i think i shall be the one to do it then. I did think of him today at the exam hall.. Coz he alway there for me for the past few years whenever i have my exam. Nagging at me to study study study.. Haha. But everything there is alway the 1st time.

1st time going thru watever in life alone, 1st time a lonely Xmas, 1st time getting stronger and learn to walk my own path alone, 1st time thinking wat do i really want with my life. Maybe that how ppl learn and grow.

Dun really wish to do this in Dec but then are we going to drag this on to next year? Think relationship are just not for me ba. Stay Single ba. No committment, no need to think did he went out to drink tonight, no need to think which girl did he drink, no need to think did he hav sex with other.. FREE N EASY is the best!!!

I think in future i shall do up a half year contract. All my bf can only last half year.. No extension, No re-contract!!!! Best!!! Sign it before u wan me to be ur gf. Lolx!!!

My "glow in the dark" nail polish

Went to hougang mall to get present for fren bday on Wed. End up shopping for myself. Haha, bought 2 dress for myself which are not really my style kind. & the most excited thing i bought is the 'glow in the dark' nail polish.

Haha, so at night when i was abt to go to slp i apply the color. But quite disappointed coz nothing glow at all. tmd. tio biannnnnnnn. Since it wun GLOW in the dark then there is nothing special abt this nail polish already. it look damn plain oso, just some soft pink.

So last night i went to apply another top coat with some shiny bits nail polish. End up nv did any study at all. lolx. think whole week been telling myself to start study but really quite irritated mood that i nv really start oso. FB FB FB FB FB FB all the way!!!!

Been chasing after this Japanese Drama on Tv starting @12am. So everytime i will slept at 1am. Off the light then lay down. & then there is my nail glowing in the dark. lolx. crazy stupid woman me =) haha